Personally I belief that being abroad brought me closer to myself. It wasn’t really that I found myself. I mean I wasn’t lost but finally doing whatever you want to do is so nice. Not that I normally listen to the people around me if I think something is cool or interesting, it’s cool no matter what anyone else says. For example I have been liking One Direction since 2010 and no matter what anyone says it isn’t going to change because of others. It did change a bit over the years. I am somewhat more lowkey supporting my favourite artists because adulthood and stuff. I still go to concerts don’t get me wrong it’s just more low key and grown up.
Anyway how I found myself.. It’s basically like this: I don’t have to justify my thoughts, action and choices. It’s different from being home, I can’t explain it really but it’s really different. It’s not that I can’t do whatever I want at home, I mean I can I have the easiest going parents but it’s in you, isn’t it? Talking to mum about your day, asking dad if it’s okay to go to the city. Not that they will say no but it’s plain nice to text or say where I am or where I went. Now I don’t have that here if everyone is away I just go and if they need me they will probably contact me. It’s in a way being completely on your own. It’s not that I have to tell my parents where I am all the time. But it’s a way of being good mannered to keep them up to date. But if I decide that I fancy going for a walk in the city, they would ask why. What I found is, I don’t usually have a way. And also that I do not have to have a why. I have less then a month left and I can’t wrap my head around that fact. I am going to leave my beloved New Castle. I already know that when I leave, I have to come back even though I am not even I need to go back and I am not even gone yet. I fell in love with New Castle.
Let me give you a update about my life.
School has been great it really is a routine now a days. Mum came over because it was the half term holidays. It was amazing having her but not seeing her for 8 weeks and then seeing her a lot in four days was so different. We loved it though. It was great. We went to town, to the metro centre (which is a shopping mall). We went to One direction, we visited Durham in the streaming rain, we saw the bridges at night. I wanted to show mum how much I love New Castle and how much it gives me. How much energy and happiness. She understands now, no one can walk along the quayside and not love it. She knows now why I love being here so much.
On Saturday I had a really important appointment. I got my hair done. I went to Fenwick in the centre of New Castle and got my hair done by Charlie who did a amazing job. I am so incredibly happy with how it turned out. She made the bottom part of my hair blonde. I will go into it a bit more in another post but I adore it.
Which brings us to this week, to today. I haven’t had a good week, I had a massive migraine attack and needed to leave school before we actually started. I am feeling better now after two days. My head still hurts but I don’t feel like I am moving all the time when I am not. I have had migraine before but never this bad. I don’t really want to get into it that much if I am honest. Todays blogpost is therefore not as long or spectaculair as I normally try to make them.