Studying

When I was a young girl.

When I was little, I thought I could be anything. Be anything I want. It never mattered to me or my family. I could become a doctor, a lawyer, a cleaning lady or a teacher. I could do whatever I wanted, whatever made me happy. I could be anything. With kindness and willpower you can become the woman you are meant to me. That is the world I grew up in. I know know that that is a very privileged life. Not all mum’s and dad’s are that kind and that lovely to their children dreams. They are not all so kind to tell their children that they can be anything. I wanted to be a primary school teacher when I was young, from six years old that was my dream. Looking back now I wanted to work with children and help them to achieve great things and back then I didn’t know about all the other professions there are that do that.

When I was about ten, my life changed. Looking back now it doesn’t matter because I am so happy where I am today. But back then in my rose-coloured life. It put it all upside down. that was the first time, someone told me I couldn’t make my dreams come true. At least that I remember. In primary school we get told what level we can do in high school. We get tested, every year and the test from the last three years count. As well as the teachers opinion. Which a teacher is a human and not always right. Now I was told I couldn’t go the level I wanted. therefor i was told i wasn’t smart enough. I guess in a lot of ways this made me very insecure about my intelligence. I changed levels, went to college, went to a applied science university, did the highest high school level in my least favourite and most difficult subject (maths). I went to a research university, a school that I felt a connection to right away, there I was at a place I had since the age of ten thought of as ‘too difficult’, ‘too hard’. There I was putting my first exam in, and I got an A.

You need a certain level of intelligence to do certain things. It might not be what you want to hear but it’s true. HOWEVER, it is by far more important that you love what you do with every fiber of your being. With every piece of your soul. With everything you are and everything you want to be. YOU, yes you. Can be anything you want and you should never let anyone stop you. If I could go back in time, i would tell myself. you will get there, at a place you wouldn’t want to trade for anything else. You will meet amazing people on your journey and you will be happy. It will come and go but at the end of the end of the day. You will be proud, happy and no matter what life brings you. Wherever you end up. You will know.

Whatever I do, I can be anything I want, but I should never be unhappy.

lots of love,
Melissa

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